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New Year, Old Me

New Years is always about looking forward and starting fresh. For many, there is a clean slate involved somewhere in the foray. Resolutions are made, broken. Dreams are toasted with a little sparkling cider or champagne.

In previous years, I have participated in the celebration and Auld Lang Syne. I made resolutions. I broke them, usually by the 15th of January. I looked ahead to dreams and plans that were not really my own, which is why they were so easy to break. There was no passion or commitment to see them through. Why? Because they really, ultimately, did not matter.

Seriously, does the world become a better place because I lose a few pounds? Read more? Play more tennis? Drink more/less coffee? Watch less TV? Finish the novel? Does it matter? Does it change lives? Does it feed the hungry? Shelter the cold? Get people off drugs? Heal broken homes?

Nah. It makes no difference whatsoever.

One of my favorite movies of all time is Star Trek: Generations. from a film critic standpoint…


A season of change is upon me. Actually, I have come full circle. Let me explain with a bit of backstory.

You see, this blog was born out of bitterness, as evidenced by my very first post. I was going through the most awful time in my life, and a good friend suggested that I use blogger to vent and process. Before 2004, I had it all by the world's standards. I was a pastor, I had a wife and three amazing children, a cat, a dog, two cars, and a 4 bedroom house in a nice neighborhood. Appearances can be deceiving, however, and material things are not a guarantee of happiness. Often, the opposite is true.

My wife of 13 years left me for another man. My church asked for my resignation. Many (not all) of my friends threw me under the proverbial bus. Suddenly, a life devoted to God became a life devoted to being angry at God. I have been mad at so many people for so long. It has affected my mental and physical health.

I remarried in 2004, and I made a short "comeback" to the …

The Annual Post-Thanksgiving-Ruminations Post

Each year at this time, I take stock of things and look back in order to look forward. Sometimes I just stop and look right here in the present. From my previous post, you can see that I have had quite the year in my personal life. So for this particular post, I have decided to look at the here and now, and then maybe take a peek at the future. Maybe. Or at least paint a picture of what I am hoping for.

Let me begin by saying that I am thankful for a great many things. Way too many to name here (translation: I'm too lazy to type it all out), but here are just a few:
I am deeply thankful for my children. Cody, Jenna, and Katie represent the very best parts of me (what few there are). Watching them grow up into the young man and women they are becoming has truly been the highlight of the last 20 years. I am thankful for my best friend Jay. No human on earth has ever been there for me as much as he. I cannot imagine my life without him in it, nor do I want to.I am thankful for my pare…

It's Been a Year!

Well, not quite a year, but way too long since I have posted on my humble blog. It has indeed been quite a year though. Here is the recap:

Separated from wife #2Moved into my own placeGave up on women, God, and politicsDropped college classes Reunited with God and womenStarted dating again Said good bye to 1997 Chevy S-10Bought a new car, cursed the car payment Took oldest to collegeEnrolled in a new University to finally finish the damned Masters Degree once and for all Seeking third job to pay for car and college kidRemembered I had a blogWrote this postNow you are updated. I will be posting again very soon. I will try to make it daily promises. Lots to talk about though!